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Lucy...
          If it seems strange that a little girl and a family that I've never met would make such an impact on my life, I would agree. I'm not sure how I started following Lucy's blog. I'm sure Ali mentioned it and from the first post I read I was hooked. Lucy would be going into first grade. She was diagnosed with Cancer about a yr and a half ago. I've followed the blog for that long. Lucy and her family are spending their last days here on Earth together. I'm praying for her family, especially her older sister and her parents. I could go into detail about the loses in my life, and the fact that it's probably why this story has touched me so much but I'm convinced I was suppose to follow this blog for the trials in my current life.
          Kate, Lucy's mom has been so utterly honest and forthcoming in her raw emotions and even the roller coaster her faith has been on at times during Lucy's fight. She let us in on the tough questions she was struggling with, the questions almost everyone that's dealt with a chronic illness in their family has asked of God. I have been moved to tears on more than one occasion by this blog. This woman's faith has been amazing. She was very honest with her anger and then, much like myself, feeling guilty and in almost the same sentence very thankful for the blessings that are there. If I remember correctly (and I say that because I would never want to be wrong about it) at one point one of her followers asked why she prays if everythings is in Gods plan? Why pray if it's going to be how God wants it in the end? I literally felt like I was in a Sunday school lesson when she answered this.
          Kate has often wondered in her blog about the purpose of Lucy's battle. I am profoundly certain that Kate and her blog has touched soo many and stired so many beliefs and had to bring lots of people through some rough times. Either dealing with illness or questioning faith, Lucy's battle has already had it's purpose. So, why did it have to be Lucy? Why was it Lucy's battle to fight? These are the questuins Kate is facing now. There is no answer suitable to these questions being asked by a parent losing a child. I pray in time she comes to accept this and her periods of acceptance get longer.
          I can't help but compare, but let me say the I am profoundly aware and thankful that God willing, Bricen will get better and Lucy's battle has been so much more intense than Bricen's. But Kate's blog has helped me when I was soo frustrated and on the brink of losing my sanity or simply scared of losing Bricen in the beginning. Those first couple nights when I was at St. Francis and Bricen at Riley, all I could do was pray and simply tell God that Bricen was in his hands. There was a post (and again, I don't want to quote because I'd never want to be wrong) by Kate that mentioned that she realized Lucy was God's child he had in a way loaned her out to Kate. Before Lucy or Bricen were Kate's daughter or Brandi's son, they were children of God. That post (and my faith in the Lord) helped me get to that mind frame that I could place Bricen in God's hands.
          My heart breaks for Kate and her family. Cancer SUCKS. I am forever grateful for this blog and what it's done for me in my life. Lucy's battle has not been for nothing. Lucy has fought a good fight. She has displayed strength and courage in ways that grown men the size of ogres would not have had. There is a song that I hold dear to my heart that in essence says, It'll be worth it after all child, after all of your trials you'll hear Jesus call. That is one promise no one can break. For Lucy, it will be worth it after all. <3