Forgetful Mom and Xanax...
It's 2:20am and Bricen is getting his last feed in. I'm starting a post which means he will probably start fussing or puking any minute. He's confused. He thinks thats what he is suppose to do. :) I've been forgetting some very important news. Bricen took his first steps on Thanksgiving Day. I complained because here I am home with this kiddo five days a week and I am at work on the day he takes his first steps. Haha. He takes steps on his own a lot now. The most I've seen is about ten steps and then he goes down.
We had another swallow study on Friday. The above pictures are of Bricen's super cute hat and his playing in the waiting room before his swallow study. I will admit I almost didn't let him down because of the germs that were probably on that thing. I text Sara asking if we could have one before the end of the year because we had just found out insurance would change after the first of the year. Within a half hr we were scheduled for the next day. We didn't get a chance to try extra thin liquids (water, juice) because this little guy was over it but we did get to try thin and he showed no aspiration!!! Praise the Lord 'cause this Mama needed some encouragement. I am beyond frustrated with Bricen's eating. I text Speech Therapy today to let her know Bricen is going through a phase where he doesn't want anything that I sit in front of him...nothing. It's driving me bonkers. I feel like I'm shoving food in his mouth. She asked when I was planning on starting another 3day trial. I said I had started one this a.m. but he's doing such a crappy job I'm going to wait and start one Wednesday because we see Developmental Peds and Pulmonary Wednesday and I don't want his weight dropping and them stressing out on me. I then text to her "p.s. I'm aware it sounds like I'm the one who needs xanax right now." I always question myself. Is there something I'm doing that I should be doing differently? So, we agreed to regroup on Wednesday when we also see her and go from there. There really is no rhyme or reason with Bricen sometimes. For example: When I started this feed we were 26mls in and he pukes. Twenty-six mls people. A medicine cup is 30mls. What do we do? Clean him up, get him happy again and restart the feeds. Poor Baby.
We are almost ready for Christmas. All my gift shopping is done except for one person. I started grocery shopping tonight after going to Sams and Babys R Us but I forgot my list outside in the car, it was raining, I had one very fussy baby on my hands that had already puked in babys r us and if I continued shopping he wouldn't get a bath before bed and his little button is irritated around it again and it was after 9 p.m. Basically, I was fighting for mom of the year position had I not cut the trip short. Aaand the Subway guy was being a punk about giving us a cup half full of hot water so I could warm up some formula. I think we had both reached our happy limit. Actually, all three of us had reached our happy limit, Brilynn went with us. I'll finish groceries another day this week. I have to have everything as ready as possible when I go to bed Friday because I work Saturday and Sunday and Christmas is here on Monday. The coffee pot will own me that 24hrs.
You know you have a little boy when he turns the remote into a car, with sound effects and all.
We hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas!
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