Reed All About It!

So it's about 4am. Idk why but my post timing is always off. I can't sleep. I can add some humor and say if this "germ" so to say was standing in front of me right now I'd punch it in the special parts. That in itself is funny because I don't think I've punched anyone or anything in my life. But in all seriousness, I hate being sick and more than that I hate my sweet baby being sick. 

People think I'm crazy or sometimes mean because we are so crazy about keeping germs away. Look at this week. I had wrapped my mind around a no tube trial. Was ready. And now this. And yes, I'm sick too. In fact, I don't remember the last time I've felt this bad. I would not trade being a mom for absolutely anything but I sure do miss the days that I could take NyQuil and sleep or good cough medicine and sleep without being worried I'll sleep through Bricen's needs. Or better yet, what I wouldn't give for some chicken noodle soup and sprite from my mom. Haha love n miss her. Situations like this make me miss her more. She would have been helping however and anyway she could. 

Back to Bricen. Yes, I am sick but I can't imagine being this guy. He's running a fever coughing his head off full of congestion. I know what my throat feels like I cannot imagine what his feels like. I have had warm or cold drinks to help soothe. I have offered him countless drinks of everything and Popsicles and even fruit to suck on but he won't take them. Besides celery. (Ahh my little weirdo. :) he bites little hairs off and hands em to me.) Add that coughing on a raw throat to throwing up. Throwing up sucks! As adults we forget that from time to time. That alone makes your whole chest and throat sore. I just hate it for him. I can use cough drops and blow my nose and take DayQuil. Not much you can do for a 22 lb 2 yr old besides Tylenol And pray he keeps enough feeds in to stay hydrated and not lose the wt we fight so hard for or the progress with feeds we fight so hard for. Vent over. Time to check temp again. Little guy heating up next to me making me hot making me cough. We will make it still countless blessings surrounding us. Just venting. A simple cold would be a dream for some parents w kiddos fighting for their lives. We know this.  Irrational or not I always have that fear in the back of my mind that a simple cold could end up that way  for Bricen.