Admit

Zofran didn't work. I hated to do it but we had to get this sweet baby checked out. I had done all I could do for him at home. And although I know it's stupid I still felt a little bit like I had failed him by not being able to avoid the ER. We gave it our best. 

So let's take a moment and focus on my eyebrows...we all know bricen finds comfort in rubbing my eyebrow. I'm going to lie n say that's why my eyebrows look like they do. 

Couple reasons I love this pic but mostly bc my husband has a double chin in it. :) 

I would love to say we are seeing a difference but not yet. Although when he is awake he is feeling well enough to want the iv off/out. He's fussy and cranky and I don't blame him. I might be a tad that way too. I was going to try to shower but Bricen told me in his own way that showers were overrated and he didn't think I needed to at this time. :)

....fast forwArd few hrs, midnight 

We might have seen some improvement this evening. He is currently worn out. He got some Benadryl and had to get a bath. There was concern of bed bugs (I know I know!) so we got a new room, had to have a shower and bath and he got the Benadryl for the itching. Mama bear might have come out of hibernation for a moment in time prior to all that happening. 

I can honestly say that mama bear thing is something I don't feel like I have much control over! Twice, tonight and that one terrible sleep study, (which we will not relive) are the only times I've ever been so angry that I don't really know what I said, I get shaky, get hot, etc etc. Now, I promise it was very mild, I don't think I raised my voice nor did I curse or insult anyone...but just still out of my normal temperament. Hate when that happens! Don't enjoy it, prefer to fly under the radar.  Glad we are in the new room. Prayerful that we have a good night. Starting half n half at one, feeding thru the night, hoping to be on full strength by 6 am feed. Prayerful this is a good plan....think they are trying to get rid of me. ;) on a good note, we love the night nurse.

Sitting up on his own in his new room. 

I cut myself out for obvious reasons but it's been kind of cute/pitiful to watch him try to suck on the finger on the one hand and get frustrated he can't bend the other arm to get to my eyebrow with the other hand.